Quest to Getting Back On My Horse #10

Hi guys,

It is the 1st of May and things are really getting interesting already. I had a job interview yesterday at a staffing agency and another one tomorrow at a warehouse in the Bronx.

Now to catch you up on what's been going on: I had briefly cut ties with the a certain job specialist and found myself not wanting to take my chances with him. But after returning from the staffing agency yesterday, I did the wrongest thing...I returned his call from that morning. I told him that things were looking up and that I had just come from a job interview. He asked about the Middle Marketing job and I told him that I decided not to go with it. I told him that I was going to call the gentleman that I had met with to see what was the status with the job. (By the way, after an email and a phone call, he told me that he is still waiting to hear from his guy regarding the job.)

So, this morning I get calls from this job specialist. When I called him back I left a message. Then he returned my call and started telling me about another job and how I can't be late and then went on to say about my boyfriend helping with the stripclub job. That's when my mood shifted. I started thinking about what an asshole he was and very disrespectful, that's when I decided to send him the following email:

Thanks for the information, Mr. (Insert Name). However, I have an issue. When you call me, you have this notion that I am always late, which is not true. I have shown that I can arrive on time and in fact have arrived at PR a half hour prior to our meeting time. Secondly, I would ask that you refrain from bringing up my boyfriend in conversation. I understand that you found the "nightclub" job posting amusing, but I did not. It has nothing to do with my religious beliefs, it was about respect. I wouldn't expect you to have your child willingly go into something like that even if it meant "easy money." I don't know what you think of me as a person, but that was rude to make a spanking joke in reference to my boyfriend. He was looking out for me and I wouldn't expect any less.

It is obvious that you didn't like the idea that he got involved, but its whatever. I talk to you with respect, I don't talk to you like just some poor schmo on the street. And the fact that I didn't say anything showed that I was willingly to let it go, but you called me and decided you wanted to make snarky comments. I am not a child and therefore do not need to be spoken to like one.

Thirdly, you told me not to apply for the Medical Billing Specialist position. Then what was the point in sending me the information if you had doubts about it? I was up for applying for it since that was the reason whay I came into your office that day. In addition, so much time had passed in regards to the computer assistant/office clerk position with GoodTemps that Sarah had called me to tell me there were no positions, even after you said you were going to give it time and send them an email.

I don't know what game is being played here, but that is not right.

I will go to Menu Solutions tomorrow, but I am going for me, not because you and my boyfriend have something to say about it. And I'm surely not going to accept a job just because someone thinks its the right thing for me to do.

Well, let's just say that he sent me an email to call him and then he called me back. I didn't answer. I felt good about what I did. However, when I explained to my bf what happened, he was upset that I was talking to this so-called job specialist. To be honest, I am upset at myself for doing the same thing.
My big problem is feeling like I have to do things to please other people. And that is not way things are supposed to be. I am supposed to just be me and do what I have to do to get things done. Well, almost anything.

Well, on the upside my mother called me and told me that she spoke to a woman at work and she is going to talk to the Principal and see if I can get an interview as the Principal's secretary. Cool, huh? Yeah I think so too. Except for when she said that I would be making more money than her. Epic :(

That's it for now guys. Laterz.